Is everything by chance?  Is it all just chaos and are we destined to ruin?

Is there some divine plan lurking behind every word and action?  Could it lead us exactly to where we need to be?  Breathe.  Surrender.  These words guide me to a deeper understanding.  What I do know, is that I know nothing.  What is a stone?  What is a tree?  What is a seed?  One can say that it is cellular structure and atoms  bouncing around at different vibratory speeds, but the truth is that we have no idea what a stone is..  Where a stone comes from... The essence of a stone is totally a mystery, like everything in this world.  We are born to a mystery.  Life is essentially what we make of it.  Ultimately, we can choose to believe in chaos or purpose.  The latter leads us to a sense of cause and effect, that our actions have a ripple effect, a consequence.  

We, as a species, have been ignorant to the possibilities that surround us.  The wars over religion, territory and power have encompassed the entire whole of the globe.  One can only reason that there is something greater than ourselves out there in the cosmos.  We are so small and seemingly insignificant..  Mother Teresa said something to the effect that life is an ocean and that she was just a drop, but that one drop has some sphere of influence.  A lot of people feel a vulnerability and a separation from the earth. There is no instructional booklet for the human, as one that comes with a computer..  We have to fail to find what works.  We have to feel pain sometimes in order to grow..  It has been said that pain is the touchstone of spiritual growth.  A touchstone is a stone that gold is rubbed upon to determine  the purity of the gold, in a sense we are put to the touchstone of life and it determines our level of understanding and compassion. We can never really know the mysterious ways of the order that surely surrounds us.  All we can know is that we are learning every day.  This is the school of life and we can start by humbling ourselves, to be deep enough to be shallow.  To say, I don't really know anything, but I will never stop searching for the answers.  I will strive to know myself, and therefore know others... Because at our core, we are all the same..  Atomic energies vibrating at different frequencies.  To even begin to know another, one must know thyself.  For by knowing oneself, we can be reborn again.  We all have opportunities to repair,  living organism that has the ability to repair itself at a cellular level.. What is the difference between a terminally ill patient that survives and one that does not?   Choice.  We all have a choice inside, to search the depths of our soul or to try and conquer the outside world.  My heart tells me that we are closer than we think to something magical and otherworldly.  Just because you can't see it doesn't mean it's not real.